The darkness had fallen over the land two, three days ago. It was hard determining the passing of time. Nothing was as it should be. We stumbled in the shadows that were barely lightened by the rising sun. The world was not as I had come to know it.
Although the sun brought a dismal grey to our lives, the nights were of the most fathomless blackness. It was an unending darkness that caused much claustrophobia. Even though the world, I am assuming, maintained it usual spaces, the dark seemed to close in tightly about each person. The cover of silence was underscored by the continual murmur of voices as people tried to come to terms with whatever had or was about to befall them. It was a time of terror for most, prayer for some.
In the loneliest time of the great night, tiny pinpoints of light punctuated it’s dense shade for some people had managed to light candles or small fires. These tiny rays of hope should have drawn others closer. They didn’t. Most of the wandering souls feeling their way through the void seemed to be repelled by the flickering flames. A very few joined the small groups near the tiny lights, kneeling where they found themselves and praying. I felt myself an undecided spectator.
It was hard to believe that only three, maybe four days ago now, life was so normal. People went about their business as usual with little thought of doing without. Newspapers blared daily about the corruption, murder and crimes of our daily lives. For the majority, these were things that happened to other people. The world was changing but we humans kept making adjustments to keep up with what the world was becoming. There was little innocence left except in the very young. We compromised what values we had in order to fit in at work and home. Life just kept going on and we adjusted our outlooks to cope with it. Religion was an extracurricular activity not necessary for the day to day living we dealt with.
Then the televisions and radios went blank for no apparent reason. We couldn’t guess the extent of the problem since our lines of communications were gone. Telephone calls went suddenly dead, appliances stopped. The sun shone down without question on a suddenly quiet world. Then harsh expletives rent the air as people used profanity to comfort themselves as they were faced with the inexplicable. There was confusion and much unkindness as each tried to blame another.
The darkness. . . How to explain the advent of the blackness that eventually covered the world, at least the world as far as we could see from our personal viewpoints during this time. It was like dusk approaching and never lifting enough to bring on the morning.
That first moment of complete darkness brought out the candlelight. I felt myself drawn to it yet unable to approach it and envied those who were able to single-mindedly move towards those small breaks in the dark and those who were determined to remain in the blackness. I had read descriptions in books referring to the black velvet softness of the night. There was nothing soft or comforting about this continual night.
I felt my way through the night, neither repelled nor consoled. I looked for a resolution to this sudden mystery. I pondered this holocaust that plagued us all.
“To die is landing on some silent shore, Where billows never break, nor tempests roar; Ere well we feel the friendly stroke, ‘tis over.” Sir Samuel Garth
This was not death. . .yet. There was no quiet withdrawal from life for anyone within my perception. The darkness was getting blacker and the earth shook with unearthly thunder. These strange signs and wonders brought more people to their knees and caused great consternation among those who continued to push and shove their way through the black nothingness that had replaced our world. Loud noises seemed to announce events to come and occurrences to fear.
Voices were raised in praise and in hate, each vying for center stage in this empty world of night. Like an almost spiritual chorus, I hear reminders.
“Blessed is he, that readeth and heareth the words of this prophecy; and keepeth those things which are written in it, for the time is at hand.” Apocalypse Chap. 1:3
Was the time at hand? Or were we experiencing a massive nuclear catastrophe brought on by human action? The world continued to tremble and the darkness deepened and there were cries of hope and cries of dismay. I felt unprepared and panic set in as I began to review my life up until this point. Humanity pushed in from all sides as I continued to stumble in the murky unknown. I was inflicted with blows from people trying to shove their way through the crowds. I fell over others who found comfort in kneeling in prayer.
“Such as I love, I rebuke and chastise. Be zealous therefore, and do penance.” Apocalypse Chap. 6:17
Some took the darkness as a cover for more excesses. For others the darkness caused them to weep over sins committed. Tears poured down my face both in frustration and in my striving to attain a calmness in my soul. I felt this serenity in some I passed in the dark and fearsome hate emanating from others.
“Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I will also keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon the whole world to try them that dwell upon the earth”. Apocalypse Chap. 3:10
The majority of the crowds continued to mill aimlessly. The candles and almost equally small fires lit at the commencement of the blackness remained lit in spite of the rushing winds and tantrums of nature. They lightened more of their surroundings than seemed natural seeing their small size in the face of the darkness. People continued to kneel next to these tiny beams not as a source of worship but as representing their center of worship. I finally approached, knelt and felt the flame ignite my soul.
“What’er my darkness be, Tis not, O Lord, of Thee; The light is Thine alone; The shadows, all my own.” J. B. Tabb.